It happened again. Another night visitor. A visitor from the other side.
Most of them just come to me after I am in bed at night. Trying to drift off, or waking up during a night spent tossing and turning. I can feel the presence, can feel something lay down next to me in bed. I can feel them touching me, taking my hand. If I open my eyes they dissipate, but as soon as I close them they return again. It first started happening when I lived in San Antonio, about 6 years ago. They don't come as often since I moved, but they have not abandoned me. Here is the story from last night.
Christmas. Spent the day at home with my parents. That night I was sitting in the front room in front of the stove doing a little artwork. My mother was in the same room, stretched out on the couch, moaning and groaning that she ate too much she was allergic to. My father was on the computer in the office. About 10:30, I suddenly hear a TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP-TAP. We live out in the country and were not expecting company so I was pretty startled. I looked at my mom, she heard it too. She told me it sounded like someone was knocking and to check the doors. I looked out all the windows, turned on the outside lights, no one. I made sure the doors were locked and went about my business.
Two hours later, I'm about ready for bed. My mom was in bed, my dad was dozing in front of the fire. Most of the lights were off. I was walking from the bathroom and into/through the kitchen when I saw a large, dark shadow move through the other side of the room and into the family room. I was pretty startled, but it made no noise, so I chalked it up to my own shadow/my imagination. I went to bed.
I didn't have much luck falling asleep. I tossed and turned quite a bit. Then finally, finally I thought I had calmed down enough to drift off, and thats when I first felt the presence. The THING. One of them, for sure. A Spirit from another realm of being. It drifted into and behind me, partially sharing the same physical space as me. It wrapped its arms around me from behind, and took my hands into its hands. Its hands felt a little clammy, damp, as if it were nervous. I was surprised with how solid they felt. In my most previous experience, the hands had felt fleshy but kind of soft/rubbery, like flesh with no bones. These hands were a bit different, a different being perhaps than my last visitor?
For a moment, I enjoyed the embrace. I've been going through some stressful life events and the cuddle felt good. Then I had to make sure I wasn't dreaming, and I opened my eyes. As I did that, the being dissipated. I could no longer feel it. I closed my eyes. A few moments later, the being descended back upon me and took up the same position. I could feel it existing through me, through my arms, chest, stomach, head, and neck. Yet I could feel that it was taking space below/behind me (I was lying on my back), as I felt its arms around me and its hands were enclosed in mine. I opened and closed my eyes a few more times, and the same thing happened each time. Finally, my nerves gave way to slumber and I finally drifted off, held tight in its arms.
I slept some, dreamed some, but still had a fitful night. I could feel it next to me nearly the whole night. And it did turn sexual. I'm not quite sure how to explain that, but with the sensations I was feeling in my abdomen... sexual. And in the early morning hours I could still feel its presence through me, only now it was starting to hurt. I was feeling a thick, heavy pain in my side/back. Open my eyes, it'd go away. Close them, it'd come back. Its arms were no longer wrapped around me, it was kind of beside me, and I really don't understand why/what was painful. This was the first time I've experienced any pain.
It must not have been in bed with me the whole night. There was a point in time in the morning when I felt a very strong presence lingering about three feet beyond the foot of my bed, just watching me. I felt the presence standing there for several minutes. I had thought it was one of my parents, but when I asked them, it wasn't. These could have been three different beings throughout the whole night, but it just as likely could have all been the same one. It did not speak to me (others have). But it sure did want me.
